Next week, a very personal memoir about '80s pop icon Cyndi Lauper’s life will make its way to bookshelves and Kindles around the world. But for the girl who made us all just want to have fun, life wasn’t always such a party -- and at one point, she even considered committing suicide.

According to early reports and reviews, Lauper makes some pretty startling revelations in the book. She recounts the story of how her poverty-stricken childhood in Queens, NY lead to her being an abused runaway who later made an unlikely ascension to the top of the music charts as pop royalty.

But Lauper reveals that as the limelight started to fade away, she spent a lot of time alone battling severe depression.

“I had no television, no stereo, nothing. I was still a kid and I was alone,” she wrote. “I had come so far but felt like I had failed. It was never enough.”

Even in the midst of this depression, she was under pressure to continue producing hits. Lauper wrote in her memoir that she “would go to the studio and then sit in my dark room and drink vodka. I thought the sadness would never go away.”

And, then, most shockingly, Lauper reveals that she considered committing suicide, saying, “The only thing that always prevented me from [doing it] is that I never wanted a headline to read, ‘Girl Who Wanted To Have Fun Just Didn’t.’” She goes on to say that it was finally treatment in therapy that helped her overcome the demons of her past so she could make herself a future.

‘Cyndi Lauper: A Memoir’ will be available on September 18, and it sounds like something you’ll want to read all through the night, time after time.

(Oh, like you wouldn't have gone there.)